I’m sorry I had been acting like a child. I’ve been sober for three months and intend to keep it that way for the wellbeing of my life and my health and myself.

You and everything that came out of your mouth was my trigger. 

I just didn’t understand why someone would use and intentionally hurt someone, but I’m over it now. I waved my little white flag. 

And I forgive you. You know who you are.

But don’t try to talk to me, or stalk me, or even try to see me. 

Just because I forgive you, doesn’t mean that I’m going to put myself in the position to have to forgive you again. There’s no reason for you to have a tumblr so deactivate it and quit watching over me. I don’t need/want you anymore. There’s no reason that I should add pain back to my life, that is my wisdom. Leave me in peace. I’m not on your territory anymore.

I accepted the fact that I cannot change you, I have changed  the things about me that I could and had the power to change, and I received the wisdom to know the difference between sympathy and love. My love for you was only sympathy and I’m not immature for saying that, its just the truth. 

We were never meant to be friends or lovers. It was a fantasy that turned into a nightmare.

When people think of me as psychotic and called me psychotic for their own reasons time after time, I started to believe it. I may be psychotic but there’s a reason for everything. I tried to choose my own destiny and it backfired. When I stopped trying to control other people and destiny, my life finally took a turn in the right direction (at least I think so). 

I have no regrets, just experience and wisdom. I hope everything goes well for you in life, and I wish you all the happiness in the world. I don’t think my destiny will ever cross your path again or land on your territory. Glad to call it a learning experience. 

I’ve realized I need to quit playing with fire. This message may be close to playing with fire but I’m hoping that it’ll just be peaceful closure.